A time to THINK

So, I got some of my laundry stolen from the laundromat yesterday. Lost my favorite pair of jeans, my favorite Michael Buble t-shirt and an embroidered towel that I got for graduation. I guess someone was in need of new clothes, but I did get really upset. REALLY upset.

But then God reminded me that I have been asking for spiritual humility lately. He sure has a way of answering prayers. I know that I don't really NEED those clothes (although they were some of my favorites to wear), and I do have other clothes to wear. So, I guess someone needed those jeans more than I did. :)

Another thing that's happened, I met with my mentor this week and she is a lovely woman. She's former teacher and now a stay at home mom with three kids. I really would love to be a stay at home mom, but my mentor pointed out that there's really no such thing as a part-time teacher. You either work, or you don't. So I got to thinking about that. THEN, in my "intro to special ed" class (as I like to call it), we talked about speech pathology. Speech pathologists can work with regularly developing children, children with disabilities, AND when the time comes to be a stay at home mom, I can do that, too! AND there are only 5 speech-schools in Mississippi, and one of them is in Columbus, just 20 minutes away (and where my best friend, Alyssa goes to school :))

So I have a lot to contemplate. But I'm relying solely on Jesus to lead my way! Lord, show me YOUR desire for my life send me some neon lights so I know I'm on the right path!

dunno

I'm sitting here at work, bored, tired, stressed, excited, and... well, blah. that's about the only way I can describe it. It has been raining here for 4 days, and it's only going to rain more, they tell me. I think the lack of sunshine is really starting to get to me. It doesn't help that I still have a cough from the last football game, almost 3 weeks ago.

I didn't go to bed until after 2 last night. I just couldn't sleep. And then, I started crying. For NO GOOD REASON! So I prayed that whatever was keeping me up at night, and cranky during the day, that God would take it and make it His. It was interesting.

I have 4 tests in the next 3 days, and I'm a little stressed. I took a geography test last night and am anxious for the results. Then I have Social Foundations, Psychology of Exceptional Children, Teaching Grammar, and Statistics. I'm not sure how prepared I am for any of these tests, but I'm doing my best to study for them.

I'm super excited that mom came to town, and that Alyssa is coming to town tonight and that we're ALL going out to eat in Starkville! It's gonna super fun. I'm also excited because I'm going to take mom to Walmart and see if she needs to buy (me) anything. :) it's gonna be a blast. I'm also excited because MSU is playing LSU this Saturday at home, and I can't wait to watch!! Go DAWGS.

I guess I'm just a great big ball of emotions this week, and it gets confusing sometimes. But I'll figure it out soon enough!

dreaming

I've been dreaming a lot in the past few nights. and if a dream is a wish your heart makes... I wanna learn to play the guitar, write a new song, and get it heard on the radio. I wanna live in my own apartment with lots of hamburger helper, CapriSun, and a dog. I wanna ring my cowbell for 6 hours straight without getting a headache or having sore muscles. I really wanna see Alyssa. And apparently, I really want to be a fish.

who knew?

Problems...

I guess I got really used to wearing my glasses at MSU; I never really wore my glasses before this semester. Now, I've left my glasses at home and I've had a headache for 2 days and it's making me nauseated. It's not so fun, especially since no one can find my glasses anymore. :(
Please, Lord, place your healing hands on my head and help us to find those stinkin glasses!

You all remember a year ago, when I changed my major to Elementary Education because God told me to, right? Right. Well, I was going strong on that path, confident that that's what God wanted for my life. And I was so happy about it. Well, I'm still happy about it, but now I feel that God is leading me down a slightly different path: still children, just chrildren with "special" needs. Now, though, my confidence in Elem Ed is turning into pride, and I really don't want to get in the way of God's will. At the same time, though, I don't want to make an emotional decision to head down this "special" path when it's NOT God's will. Please, Lord! Give me some flashing NEON lights here! A sign that is unmistakably from YOU!!